so ya,you have forgotten about me.
i think it's time i forget about you.
My story about her.
It started when i was in secondary 2.
when i saw you,i knew you were the one.
i wanted to approach you,
but you had already a stead.
so i didn't in the end.
it was the first let go.
it was until this year,
when you added me on msn.
than it hit me,and we started chatting,
the days were short but it was full of smiles.
it was than i became your "ahma",
i wasn't happy at all,
quietly i told myself i wanted to your stead.
so i asked to change gans,
hoping you would say gan boyfriend.
but you said "kor" instead.
so i went to ask sook yee,
whether you still have stead a not.
she said you have broken up with him.
but she said you wasn't a good stead.
as you have never went out with him.
i didn't care a word she said.
so i went to ask you whether you have a stead,
you said no and asked me not to ask anymore.
so it was then my mind was set to jio you.
i still remember the part when i
promise to teach you mahjong.
i think it will never come now ya?
i even went to scold catherine,
for spike-ing the vollyball at you.
as i don't want you to get hurt,
but in the end,i got a scolding from you,
you asked me not to care about your life.
days went by fast with the happy and sad moments
and finally i asked for stead.
in the end you rejected me,
you asked me to fuck off,get out of your life.
so i did and it was the second let go.
that day i even cried but it was time to move on.
i even asked you to scold me,
i told you that will make me hate you,
so that i could move on,it worked.
we were just mei and kor after that.
than i continue to jio other girls.
one day zixin told me that you like me too.
you have even cried for me,
i hate girls to cry,
i will do anything for them not to cry.
that's my nature.
but than my feeling for you have faded.
so i started sms-ing you again.
after a few days,the feelings were back.
i even told zixin
thanks a lot for telling me.
i promise never to hurt you.
it was the 30th of April.
when i ask you whether you like me a not.
you said a little(:
i was lifted to my feets.
words can't explain how i felt at that moment.
with that i was determined to jio you.
my heart craved your name into it.
i thought we were meant to be.
but it turned out wrong.
you told me,you were sorry
and we were not meant to be on
1 May when i asked you for stead.
it was your birthday tommorrow,
i have always thought of making you the happiess girl,
but in the end,i made you sad.
i knew you didn't want to see me.
so i asked zixin to pass you the present.
after that it was hell to me.
all my close friends ask me to give up on you.
but i didn't care about them.
so i continued to talk to you.
hoping of a miracle.
but it never came.
your feelings were fading fast.
suddenly this guy yee herng also liked you.
i was walking behind of you,
and didn't dare to talk,
as i was afraid i might hurt his feelings.
it was the closes i ever got near to you.
you went out with alson,enqi,etc.
the fact that you went out with alson made me jealous
but there was nothing i can do.
you have never went out with me,
and i think i will never happen.
It was friday,
when you were playing volleyball,
the smile on your face made my day,
but i can only stand far away and look.
until yesterday it all came to me.
all this was only just a dream.
a dream which i never wanted to wake up from.
It was the third let go.
All i ever wanted was to make you happy,
but in the end i made you sad.
as i leave i hope you will be happy,
it's everything i ever wanted.
SHERMAINE SEE YUET LIN
promise me you would smile like
you used to before you knew me.
i have never regretted loving you,
you will always be somewhere in my heart.
every story has an ending ya?
so this is the ending.
let this be a sweet memory which
we can think back and smile when we get old.
My last goodbye.
